Now that I have seen...

Hello all. It's been a little over a month since my feet landed safely on American soil. I've spent that month mulling over memories of Africa: the poverty, the disease, the desperation, the joy, the singing, the hope. I think it's safe to say I will never be the same--nor would I want to go back to what I was.

Upon arriving back in the U.S. I was introduced to an artist, Brooke Fraser, who has spent a significant amount of time in Rwanda, Africa. Her song, "Albertine" has been on repeat in my van for weeks. You can check out a video of her song here.

Here are the chorus lyrics:

Now that I have seen, I am responsible
Faith without deeds is dead
Now that I have held you
In my own arms
I cannot let go till you are

It's hard explain, but after witnessing such desolation, I really do have a deep seated feeling of responsibility toward the nation of Kenya. How can I hear the stories of dozens of women who have lost their families to AIDS, who are also HIV positive, and just walk away? How can I hug, sing with, and play with street children who literally own nothing other than the torn shirts on their backs and go back to my home and a family who loves me? How can I teach a group of pastors who minister to a dozen churches each, traveling hours by bike, boat or other modes of public transportation to each congregation each week, and go back to my van with air conditioning and cd player? How can I return to my comparatively easy life when they are fighting just to keep theirs? Now that I have seen, I am responsible. Where do I go from here? I pray God will reveal it to me in no uncertain terms. I realize that I cannot singlehandedly solve the world's problems, but there must be something I (we) can do. I'll try and keep you all updated as I flesh all of this out with God's help.

For now, I'll post some long-overdue pictures!

School children in their uniforms. Beautiful smiles! Most kids in Kenya don't see cameras all too often, so when we asked to take their picture, they were more than happy to oblige.

These little girls all crowded around me after church on my first Sunday in Kenya. They pet my skin, touched my face, and played with my hair, all while giggling and talking a mile-a-minute in Kiswahili. A woman sitting nearby informed me that they were saying "Your hair is slippery, and your ears are beautiful!"

These are some of the street children that we ministered to. So silly! These boys wander the streets carrying bottles of glue, which they inhale. They beg for food and money, but most people in Kenya are unsympathetic if not downright mean to them. In a city of 200,000 people, there are 1,500 to 2,000 little boys (age 9-18) living on the street.

This little boy, Davis, has a disease (probably empitygo) which is causing an outbreak on his face and mouth. The cost of medicine would probably be no more than $10, if someone could afford to buy him treatment...

This is me teaching a group of village kids about Holy Week. The kids are waving palm branches that they made and singing "hosanna to the King of kings!"

Here are some sweet kiddos who hung out outside of a conference that my team and I were holding for Lutheran Pastors in Kenya. We had a great time playing with them, despite a language barrier.

Here I am between Isaiah and Evans, two new friends of mine who will soon be ordained pastors!

More kids at the pastor's conference. They were taking turns bouncing in my lap while singing...they loved the funny sounds they could make as they bounced.

Here is one of the rooms I stayed in at a guest house in Kisumu. Notice the mosquito net. Malaria is the 2nd highest killer in Africa. It could easily be prevented if everyone could afford to have one of these nets above their beds at night. Cost = $10

More on Africa to come...

Lots of love to all of you who supported this trip financially and through prayer! Sorry I've been so slow to tell you about it. I'll get a letter to you all in the mail very soon!

Peace That Passes ALL Understanding

What a whirlwind! One month ago my life was in California--serving God in an amazing church, leading worship, and loving on an awesome youth group. I had a good-looking apartment, a dependable car, the company of a rambunctious cat named Henry, and the blessing of many wonderful friends and "family". I had a great life.

Presently, I find myself living in a new "great life" 1500 miles down the road from California. Though I'm technically back home in Nebraska, the details of my life are fresh and new. I'm living at the Lincoln People's City Mission where I'll serve as missionary for one year. I said goodbye to my dependable car on which I was still making payments and said hello to a mini-van owned by the Mission. My buddy, Henry is living the good life with my parents and my sister, and the possibility of soon forging new friendships looks promising. And of course, I've been reunited with my family, who I LOVE!

As I reflect on the life I've left behind, and look forward to the unfolding of the coming year, I have such a calm about me that I am sure I must be experiencing the "peace that surpasses all understanding". I regularly have moments when I think to myself, or say out loud to anyone within earshot, "Should I be freaking out now?" or "Is it time to cry?" I've been through many transitions in my 25 years, and with each transition usually comes tears--tears of fear, tears of anxiety, tears of sadness over old memories. This time around, all I can feel is peace. This can only be from God!

I only wish you could all have the opportunity to step into my new life for a day--to experience the joy of this new place, see the Spirit at work among the staff and guests, to join in authentic worship of our Savior with people of every color and background, and hear the holy roar of voices raised to God in unity. There is something very special about this place. I can already feel God using my time here to fill, heal, and refresh me.

So far, my time at the mission has been spent:

1. leading worship at the Filling Station (daily chapel for staff and guests) and at Sunday church
2. playing with kids at Club E.D.E.F.Y.
3. sitting in on casework
4. helping in the family shelter
5. teaching classes
6. holding babies :)
7. being interviewed on Pastor Thom's radio show (the Administrative Director of the mission)
8. learning about domestic violence, mental illness, and drug abuse
9. building relationships with guests
10. starting the groundwork for The Backyard Mission Experience (a program that will give young people an opportunity to interface with the homeless as they sleep, eat, serve and grow at the mission for a week, a month, or a year!)

Here's a few pictures and stories from the last few weeks:
















Marina holding baby Jaylie. Marina was scoping out my room the other day--fishing through my toiletries and jewelry, when she found something she REALLY wanted! She walked over to me with my contacts in hand and said with her sweet Sudanese accent, "Kin ah poot deese in mah ahs?" She has yet to forget about those contacts :)















Chonrell (on the left) is my shadow :)




















Grace and Grace! The first time we met, Grace said to me, "Hey, you stole my name!", to which I responded, "I think I was born first!" We thought we were so funny, we've repeated this conversation many times since then.















This is Johnny. We get along great, but his true love is Natalie :) She came out to help me with the kids yesterday and Johnny fell in love with her right away. "Your sister is cute," he said to me with a grin. But of course, Johnny sees more in Natalie than just her good looks. He also thinks she is a great drawer and that she makes the best bubble letters!

Now, may you "...experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus." -Philippians 4:7

Hello friends and family!

Thank you all for your prayers and concerns for myself and my Kenya missionary team. I am writing to let you all know that the decision was made to postpone our trip until a later, and hopefully safer time. If all is well, we are looking at June 17-July 1.

Please continue to pray for the nation of Kenya as well as the nearly 250,000 people who have been displaced. They have a long road ahead of them!

All my love.
Grace

Kenya

I hate to write this update in a hurry, but....perhaps something is better than nothing? As you may have already heard in the headlines, prayers are desperately needed for the nation of Kenya. After a [supposedly] rigged presidential election a few weeks ago, political and social unrest remain. Will you please pray:

1. for rioting and protesting to cease
2. for peaceful communication between political parties
3. for relief for people left hungry, homeless, unemployed
4. for my missionary team- that we would receive divine wisdom concerning our travel, scheduled Feb. 14-28- that God would intervene if it is unsafe for us to go
5. for Dan and Patty, our hosts, living in Kenya, that they would remain safe, and that we would know best how to help them

Infinite thanks to all of you who have prayed and given support! I have been abundantly blessed by your generosity.

Never Be Enough

if there was an offering i could bring
worthy of the love shown me

it would spread like an ocean
wide and deep
stand tall like a mountain
and sing like a breeze
it's color's would rival autumn leaves
but that would never be enough

because Your love
holds back nothing
only Your love
makes me worthy

if there was an offering i could bring
worthy of the love shown me

it would spring from the ground
like fragrant trees
fill desert places
with rushing streams
bring warmth and light
to lifeless things
but that would never be enough

because Your love
holds back nothing
only Your love
makes me worthy

You give love beyond oceans
wide and deep
higher than mountains
yet gentle and sweet
You color my life
with all good things
and i'm covered in Your love
Jesus, You make me enough